But
those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land. Psalm 37:8
There
have been many times I have wanted to lose all hope throughout this
journey. At times, it seemed everywhere
we have turned we have been stopped, dead ends, hit road blocks, like there was
a cement wall that we just couldn’t climb over to get to our precious daughter
who lies in a crib waiting on her mommy and daddy to come get her, and to bring
her home. I never understood why all the
road blocks until now. I came across
Psalm 37:8 yesterday morning as I was reading my bible in my worn out place on
my couch. The words jumped out of the middle of my bible and planted themselves
on my heart. BUT those who HOPE in the
LORD will inherit the land. I had lost
all hope…in governments, in systems designed to help bring kids home, not keep
them living in the conditions they were in, in this whole process, and the Lord
reminded me gently that my hope was to be put in HIM, not the process or people. As I sat on that worn out couch with my Bible
in hand I prayed for that hope to be strengthened. I prayed for my daughter to have that hope
that she would one day have a family and I prayed for the hope that we would
one day meet, and selfishly, that that one day would be very very soon. I prayed for the day the Lord would gently whisper
it’s time, it’s time to go get her. And
then my mind flooded with thoughts of the day the Lord would look to His right
and look His Son in the eye and say, “Son, go get your children. Go get them and bring them home.” I have a Father who knows what it’s like to
wait patiently to bring His children home.
I have a counselor who knows what it’s like to be waiting on the call to
go get His family and bring them home. I
have seen God’s heart throughout this adoption.
I have seen His plan unfold. When
there were no answers and not much sense made of anything I have seen where God
has worked in our lives the most. When I
have had little hope, all I could do was let Faith take over. All we could do is just keep putting one foot
in front of the other and say, “not our will but Yours Lord.” All we could do is just Trust that His plan
is larger than ours.
We got
our passports in the mail last night.
After a wonderful day with Anna Lee and rejoicing in her accomplishments
with gymnastics, I got home and waiting for us in our mailbox was three very
nice blue books with many blank pages left to be filled. When I was little I dreamed of traveling…Italy,
Ireland, London, the Swiss Alps, but now the only stamp I want on those pages
reads Haiti. My hope began to flicker
again last night when I opened those packages that said U.S. certified
mail. It’s as if the Lord was saying one
step at a time…Our passports came in a matter of two weeks…it normally takes
about 2 months. We filed immigration
papers yesterday…hopefully an approval will come just as fast as the passports
did, much sooner than the three month “normal” wait. However, I have learned
one thing…I don’t have a “normal” God.
My God splits seas, My God heals the sick, My God clothes the lilies, so
how much more will He clothe us? My God
redeems, My God Comforts, My God Saves! So my hope is, He will work a miracle
and things will start moving, and He will whisper, “it’s time my child. Go get her!”
After immigration we get to send our Dossier
papers to Haiti, and then we wait for them hopefully, to match us to the child
we have grown to love. The Lord put her
in our life for a reason…I pray that reason is to bring her home, but if not we
will say, “not our will Lord but Yours.”
Please
pray for us and pray specifically that it is time for her to come home. The Lord knows what all it will take to make
that happen….a miracle!
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