…I
will send down showers in season,
there
will be showers of blessing.
Ezekiel
34:26
The wait is hard. I know it brings blessings, but the wait is
hard. Wait upon the Lord we keep
reminding our self. His time is perfect, His time, His will. I know what it feels like to look into those
brown eyes, and to hold her. That is the
hard part. Especially the nights, lately
have been tough. To know your child is
sleeping through the night without you, and to know you have a perfectly put
together room, just waiting is tough. I
want to put up pictures of her, I want to put clothes in the drawers. I want to hang her dresses in her closet, but
through a few things over the last few weeks I am reminded she isn’t mine until
we step off the plane with her on that last trip. So I haven’t.
I haven’t done any of the things I have wanted to. I have realized I have placed my trust not in
God, but in man and man’s policies and man’s procedures and man’s ways. Today I was reminded of who is in
control. I picked up a book I recently
read and a quote I underlined jumped off the pages at me and reminded me of who
I serve, who is in control, who sets kings on the throne and who sets up governments
and takes them away. “True faith
celebrates before the miracle happens, as if the miracle has already happened,
because you know that you know that God is going to deliver on His promise.”
From The Circle Maker This child has allowed us to see miracles we never
dreamed, and I have to remind myself she isn’t even home yet. Then another quote I underlined jumped from
the pages, “God does miracles for one reason and one reason along: to spell His
glory. We just happen to be the beneficiaries.” God is in control, He gets all the glory for
this journey, for the pain, for the happiness, for the refinement, for the
blessings, and I could go on and on. Four
weeks ago I stood on a mountain overlooking the Caribbean Sea and took in the
creation of our God. Four weeks ago my
life was changed forever. Four weeks ago
God rained down on our family.
Today as
we were beginning to start school the “PUS” truck pulled up. That’s what Anna Lee calls it ever since her
Mee Maw worked for the PUS company. He
delivered a suitcase that will travel to Haiti on the next trip. It was filled with T-shirts (Four of them,
all for us including one for Lily), a Bible, two books, and a wooden cross that
now hangs in our hallway next to Lily’s picture that is the center of family
wall. All of this with a very heartfelt
note from the Tim Tebow foundation and signed letting us know they are praying
for Lily. This child is impacting people
and she isn’t even home. This child has already
brought miracles, and she doesn’t even know.
God has used her in ways that most people never even allow Him to and we
just get to be the beneficiaries! I am
putting up pictures, and I might just dig out some clothes. I have a close friend that will come and take
the pictures down for me if that day comes, and I can’t bear to. But today, my trust is in the One that is
still making miracles. My trust is in
the one that has held us up for two years.
Today my trust is in the One that raised life from the dead and provided
us a plan for eternal salvation. Why
should I be worried about anything else!
TO GOD BE THE GLORY! To God be the glory for a suitcase filled with blessings and reminders that He is still in control!
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