Therefore I will Praise You...

Therefore I will praise you among the nations, O Lord; I will sing praises to your name. Psalm 18:49

I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me.  I have set the Lord always before me.  Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalm 16: 7-8

       I have learned, and continue to see nothing about adoption is normal.  Nothing about the journey comes close to being normal.  I heard a statement one time that after you have children it’s like your heart is ripped out and now walks around in the world, referring to your children.  I can see how that makes sense, as I feel that feeling often with Anna Lee.  As we have gone through this process I feel like my heart and all of my emotions are living on the outside in many different areas/scenarios/situations, and completely out of my control.  I have placed our future and the future of our children in the hands of other people, but also in the ultimate supreme power my loving Heavenly Father who knows what’s best for His children, myself included.  We are at a cross road right now of decisions.  Decisions that will impact our family greatly and decisions that will change a child’s life.  My Father already knows what decisions need to be made, however we on the other hand are seeking His will and His face.  We have determined this journey is about bringing God glory first.  So today I bring Him glory by praise.  I don’t know what my future holds, but I know Him who holds my future.  I don’t know what healing will need to take place in the child we bring home, but I know the ultimate Healer, because he healed me.  I don’t know what will take place when we travel to Haiti, but I know the ultimate place of Refuge.  I know there will be times I will be questioning this process and everything in it, but I know the one who holds ALL the answers.  So once again, while we are waiting on answers I will Praise.  I will Praise the One who paid my debt and saved this life out of the pit!  I will praise my Jesus, my Savior.  I will Praise Yahweh, the Self-Existent One, the Great I AM.  I will praise Elohim, the creator of ALL my children.  I will praise El Roi, the God Who Sees, who sees ALL my children.  I will praise El Shaddai, the All-Sufficient One.  I will praise Jehovah-Jireh, the Lord who WILL PROVIDE.  I will praise Jehovah-Rapha, the Lord who Heals, my Healer.  And I will praise Jehovah-Shalom, The Lord who is Peace.  I will stand firm in the one thing that is constant in this process and that is my Lord, and I will bring him praise.  Father our future is yours.  Do with it as you will.