There will be Showers of Blessing!

I will send down showers in season;

there will be showers of blessing.

Ezekiel 34:26

I saw first-hand the power of my God and how he will bestow blessings on His children, in His timing, in His way.  I am rejoicing this morning, I am filled with awe and joy of my God, my Savior.  He answers prayer in ways that overwhelms me and blows my mind.  This journey has been spiritually and emotionally exhausting, exhilarating and very enjoyable.  Yesterday was filled with so much joy I want to stand at the roof top and shout How Great My God Is.  Well, let me just tell you how great my God is.

I will give brief details about a child we have been praying about and prayerfully perusing since last November.  She is no one we set out on this journey searching for, and we have come to understand she is everything we want and need!  She has a physical handicap, one that I might add I said NO to in our very first interview with our social worker.  I distinctly remember when the question was asked about this certain handicap if you would be willing to accept a child with this disability.  Shamefully I admit we said No.  I didn’t think I was capable or had the strength, and looking back at that time I wasn’t even sure my faith was strong enough to handle what God was planning.  I have a picture in my mind, of that moment that I was sitting on the couch answering No to that question, I have a picture of my Heavenly Father watching down and shaking His head thinking Oh, my Child just wait, just wait and see what I have planned for you and your family.  Just wait and see the future and child I know you need.  You think you know what’s best for you, but Oh my Child you have no idea.  I really had no idea!

This little girl was brought to our attention by Anna Lee, which is a very powerful story that I will share when we have “officially” been matched with this precious little one.  I have been praying for her so hard and for so long.  The prayers I have prayed for her were all answered in a matter of a 10 minute conversation with our social worker yesterday, and that is the story I want to share.  I will touch on other stories in her journey and ours coming together, but this one is so powerful, so I wanted to share! 

I felt the Lord has been so silent to me the last few months.  He has told me firmly on three occasions this is your child.  Period. Being completely transparent I have questioned God many times over the last few months, why me, why us.  Why not a healthy child?  Lord, I can’t do this.  Lord, find her another family.  Lord, help me because I feel so weak and just can’t do this.  One day He finally knocked me over the head and said your right my child, you can’t do this but I can.  You don’t have the strength, But I Do.  You aren’t able to walk this journey, but I can walk it for you!  The Lord had been silent all that time because He had already told me what I needed to hear.  She was mine, He has this, and I need to quit questioning, quit whining, quit complaining and start rejoicing.  So, that is when my prayers started to change.  I started praying for the Lord to protect her mind, and that he would give her a healthy mind.  I started praying against any mental disabilities.  I starting praying that God would give her joy and peace about her situation, and that He would send people to hold her and love her until we can.  I started praying that she would not be lying in a crib, staring at the ceiling for 24 hrs a day, knowing her disability might have her in that situation.  I just started pleading her case before the Lord.  And He answered.

Yesterday we had our third and next to last home study visit in our home!  Whoo Hoo!  We had given the tour, we had some awesome conversation.  Our social worker met Anna Lee, and she behaved (answered prayer in itself). Although she did tell on Brad for not finishing the last chapter of the book he was supposed to be finished with!  That gave us a laugh.  And at the end our social worker closed her book and said I have something to share with you.  She began telling us she was in Haiti last week, and then she told us some very powerful words...I held your child in my arms.   Tears are still flowing from my eyes now, and they were falling like showers from Heaven yesterday, and I look over at this sweet man I married 8 years ago and he had tears flowing down his cheeks too.  This moment was the sweetest moment from God and it could have lasted for years in my mind.  My social worker, who is sitting at my kitchen table in Rock Creek, Alabama was just in Haiti a few days ago holding the daughter that would be a part of our lives.  How awesome is that?  How cool is that?  It is very rare that an adopting family gets the chance to have their social worker hold their child and reassure them all will be fine.  You see before she came to our house I asked God, God I need to know her mind is okay.  I need to know the extent of what we are getting into.  I need to know she is okay, and isn’t sitting in a crib staring at the ceiling.  Those were my direct prayers.  Our social worker went on to tell us, this sweet baby sat in her lap and played with her hair.  She interacted as most babies do at her age.  She responded just as normal baby her age would, she just has her physical handicap.  PRAISE GOD for protecting her mind.  She went on to tell us she was scooting across the floor with the other babies playing with them.  PRAISE GOD she isn’t lying in a crib starting at the ceiling.  She is being stimulated, and is able to be involved in playing and activity.  She went on to tell us she held her quite a bit.  Remember my prayer that God would provide people to hold her and love her until we could.  PRAISE GOD for giving her someone that would hold her and love on her that day.   All my prayers that have drained me over the last few months were answered yesterday in 10 minutes.  He has been answering my prayers all along, I just didn't know it until He wanted me to.  And how powerful and sweet it was.  God blessed my family in ways that I could not comprehend yesterday.  It will forever be stained on my heart.  Blessings from Heaven were showered down on the Dobson Family, and I can’t stop singing the Praises of my God and Savior.  He provides, He comforts, He answers, and Hallelujah I serve a God that does not give me what I want but what I need!  He knows our future better than us.  Oh, how I love my Father.  He is so good to me!

Please continue to pray for our family and this little girl.  Pray that God will protect this little girl just for us!  We need her more than she needs us!